i have resolved to update this blog more regularly, even if only for posts that i would never publish. one and a half year is a long time to keep silent, and perhaps, my silence would condemn the last year and a half to oblivion, when memory fails. pathos laden as it may be, i would still want to look back ten years from now and see who i have been, if only to see if i was the same person. after all, i no longer write for anyone's pleasure, but my own, and for that, it is sufficient to write, and not write well.